not good :(

I hate that I follow the tag #Ariel for The Little Mermaid and there is porn! There is a porn star and I guess her name is Ariel too and it’s nasty stuff :(

Jeanette and me. She looks effin beautiful :) I love this picture. I look like a douchebag. Well, all this time with friends is helping more forget about him. Good, it is his turn to miss me.

i was thinking about the night you got depressed…you were saying things that didn’t sound like things you would say. i was getting scared. i felt like you were pushing me away and that meant you needed me more than ever. 

i remember driving to your house after my class, scared. i called your mom and told her what was going on. i needed to rescue her son. 

i showed up at your doorstep only to find out you were at your friends house, drinking your problems away. i felt helpless. you told me to go home and that you were so sorry. you said we could see each other that friday. you said you were a mess and didn’t want me to see you that way. 

i wish you would have let me. 

i would of held you as your cried into my shoulder like you’ve done before. i would have wiped your tears away. i would have given you a kiss on your forehead and held your hand through everything.

i love you with all my heart. i will always be there for you. i’ve proven myself. i will do anything for you. i love you. i will be your hero if you need me to. i am your princess. you are my prince and i love you. i will save you if you need saving cause i know you would do the same. 

you have before. you sometimes might be last minute but you save me. 

thinking of you tonight, and what i have done for you because of everything you have done for me<3 i can’t wait until you are back from mexico. i am not answering your messages because it is a good time for you to be left alone..so maybe you can see that i am always there for you. i know that every time i leave you alone for a while, it makes you realize how much i am by your side. you always come back realizing what you had. you get so sad when i’m gone. it is a bad thing that i want you sad but look at it from my point of view, i want to be missed. here is your little vacation from me. i hope you don’t enjoy it ;)

i love you very much and even though i am still mad at you, i love you. you will not see one tweet, one status update, not even a text. you will see that i’m gone. 

you take advantage of me too much. you take it for granted that i’m always by your side and here for you. it is time to see what you have missed. oh well :) might be a douche move but…idgaf ;)

Fine, leave.

I feel like you hate me. I feel like I disgust you :( poop

I just want to cry.

So im sitting here at skool listenin to ivans ipod chillin waiting for class at six. And you are on my mind. Why? Cuz i feel like ure pushing on me. Okay itz not a real good description on how i feel but i need to vent.
Sorry, im on my fone, so im writin like i txt sooo sorry, jus chill. Anywayyy
I remember feeling so confused with you. You hav sent me mixed signals since we began talkin. Yea it shuldnt matter bcuz i hav ivan but once im happy, u come to show me up, like who can b happier. Idk…thatz how i feel at you make me feel like
o.O
??
:/
Im jus tired of being confused. Im confused about u. Y r u doin this to me. I hav so many questions that need answers but u kno wat, imma b chill. Cuz i dnt need u. I miss our friendship but naaa. I hav ivan n he makes me happy, and….i think we hav to accept it. Yes, we. Cuz i miss our friendship. Y did u hav to stop being my friend wen me n ivan figured everything out? Y? I dnt get it. I wish i had the balls to say this to ur face but i dnt. Idky, usually i do. But i jus dnt wnna see u anymore cuz it makes me sad to see us like this. But honestly,
I hope u r happy.
I kno i am.

so tonight, ivan told me that he was proud of me that i was sticking to my diet :) he said i looked good :) it made me all shy and happy inside :) 

i was like “hehe really?”

haaa! i had a GREAT ASS TIME! i loved laughing with him. he was laughing sooo hard tonight but i think it was also cuz he was sleepy. lol i love sleepy ivan :) he gets silly!

he looks like that ^ baahahaha

well, i can’t wait until i see him on fridayyyyyy! :D yay!!! i wanna look pretty for him…maybe i’ll show up at his house like this:

bahahahaa jk….well, almost :) hahahahahahaaaha i’m soo kidding. more like this:

:)

I LOVE AZTEC!!!

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