Holy crap. This guy,..Jonathan from Optical..I would have never guessed in my right mind that he would be my world. After coming out of a relationship with whatshisface, thinking HE was the one for me..I was lost. I mean, I felt like..alone. I just wanted someone to love me like I love them. I tried to date this other guy and that wasnt really taking off and this guy. He told me he really liked me and I blew him off. He was too old for me and was just not someone I could see myself with. Plus my friend was into him but thatz a long story in itself. Anyway, I decide to give him a chance and every time I hung out with him, I was happy and really enjoyed him. He started to become someone I didnt want to be away from. I felt..happy and appreciated and being with him made me realize that all the happy times and good feelings I had with my ex disappeared a long time ago. I forgot what it felt like to be loved. He doesn’t make me forget. Yea it’s only a couple months into it but spending time with him makes me feel great. He makes time for me, he calls me, tells me sweet things, does things for me and loves on me. When we do fight, we talk about it and try to nip it in the bud as soon as it comes up. He is so in love with me and am I. So fast though that’s what scares me. I am honest when I say I miss my ex…but I miss the old him. People change and he did. But I am mature enough to move on and look towards my future. I am just so lucky to have a person who wants to be with me, hang out with me and laugh with me. I missed having someone to get to know and be close with. My heart is broken into so many pieces from my last. But I am going to do everything in my power to love on this guy with the last pieces I have. I am so scared to be hurt like I was before but you can’t be negative and live life on the sidelines. I just cant. Im taking a leap of faith. But it is a challenge to heal from the past and stay strong for the future at the same time. Good thing hes patient. I love making new memories with him. But don’t get me wrong, I will forever love Ivan. He was my first everything. He was my first love. I am just not romantically in love anymore but I will always love him as Johnny will always love Claudia. Now it’s just a matter of time and forgiveness. I want to be happy and that’s what Im going to do. I love you Jonathan. Thankyou for everything. You make me so happy.